Today was one of those mornings where I stayed in bed for way too long, something I haven’t done in a long time. The issue is that I get introspective in bed. I start digging. 8-10 months ago, doing so was devastating because it felt like I was ripping open every raw, pulsating wound that was delicately healing. Nowadays, the wounds have been replaced with scars and instead of devastation, I’m merely left with disappointment.
I’m disappointed and left with questions that have no answers. Questions that I’m not sure I even want answered. I think that when two people grow close or go through anything significant together, they form a bond that is inextricable. So the task becomes living with this bond and ignoring it. Moving forward and making new bonds. The saddest thing is ignoring it. The second saddest thing is wanting to ignore it to protect yourself from any further emotional trauma.
“But while men and women are equal in their capacity of absorption, they differ in their method of reaction. God invested women with deeper and more abundant emotions than he gave unto men. In this respect, He made woman superior to man. For emotions are the richest, the most valuable treasures that man possesses. A woman’s genius is in her heart, and her reactions to life therefore always emanate from the heart first. A man’s life is mostly guided by reason, a woman’s life by emotion. A man’s life is mostly a succession of plans and schemes and enterprises, a woman’s life is a chain of emotional manifestations, of tenderness, of devotion, of love.”